home alone forever

by Aidan Burns

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released December 27, 2015

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Track Name: nihil
when i slip into a lucid dream
the fire is hot and the people are mean
rise from bed when it’s said and done
and give my eyes to the rising sun
and then they burn till there’s nothing left
i wanna melt till there’s nothing left
i wanna drink till there’s nothing left
and then go onward
when i slip out of a lucid dream
the fire’s too hot and the people are mean
light a candle to the dying day
and i’ll stay silent there’s nothing to say
and watch it burn until there’s nothing left
i’ll watch it melt till there’s nothing left
and i will envy that there’s nothing left

all my dreams are becoming too real
i find no salvation when my eyes are closed
will i sink into the ground
if i keep walking with weight around my neck
last night i jumped off a building
body falling heart is willing
this to transcend out of a dream
pavement cracking people screaming
‘woe unto the boy!
a no named whisper on the cusp of life,
he was far too young!’
but i wasn’t built to be alive
so i’ll sleep until there’s nothing left

camus i am disappointing you
i can’t keep pushing a stone atop this hill
only for it to plummet back down
walking back down is the part that makes me sick
blood is made of molten lava
pouring out an endless slaughter
remove all the heat from my veins
no more burning no more paining
i don’t have the strength
my watch ticks backwards i am out of time
tarot said to me
big big things i don’t think i can reach
so i’ll sleep until there’s nothing left
Track Name: speedfreak
my heart is beating at a 125
it’s the only thing that’s keeping me alive
i ain’t ever gonna come in last
cause baby i got a need to go fast
speed freak

my mind is racing at a 210
my teeth are grinding as i go around the bend
my mind is going at a mile a word
and the things falling out are so absurd
tuff talk
Track Name: be a body
be a body
be a human
be a body
not a human
all my days
in a daze
all my days
in a daze
what is it like to know you
Track Name: stay still stay stuck
there’s a hole in the sky where every dream had goes to die
and i cannot make peace no hope no light no celestial release
it’s all around it’s all around and i can’t stand
to think what i’ll be when i am dragged through it’s sounds
and i am still around

a clock slowly ticks
hours waste away in my fist
wish i could let go and return every one unto its home
they’re all around they’re all around and i can’t move
through any more i am reaching for the door
i don’t want to regret no more

she said 'if you were a forest what color would you have for the leaves’
said ‘i don’t know, the trees would all be sick, the leaves from all the branches ripped’
i stayed still i stayed stuck
i stay still i stay stuck
Track Name: chris burden
i don’t care if it hurts
the body is futile and fragile and
it breaks with ease
and then
nothing left
so i will do things to my body
in hope
that i escape
from this mortal plain
and the flaws of
a corporeal form
i don’t care if it hurts
Track Name: ghost walk
at the end of the hall
nothing satisfies at all
haven't spoken for weeks
staying stuck between the sheets
till i do
what i don't
and it's done

when my skin crawls
nothing satisfies at all
less than one
i can't stand to greet the sun
till i do
what i don't
and it's done

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i don't walk i glide
the ground beneath my body slides
i'll walk right through you,
i see everything you do
and i don't
what i do
and it's done

burn up the picture tear up the writing
none of it happened none of it happened
i'll be a quiet one i won't touch anything
i will haunt around all the time
till i do
what i don't
and it's done

if you walk like a ghost
and you talk like a ghost
and you live like a ghost
then you are just a ghost
you can cut off your head
and you'll bleed till you're dead
but if you live like a ghost
then you are just a ghost
Track Name: hazzzedout
i like to stay awake
i like it when you weigh it out
i’m hoping there’s a way out
cause lately i’ve been hazed out
something get me out of here

i don’t fuck with people
cause people fucking scare me
their breath is hot and heavy
and they’re always fucking staring
something get me out of here
Track Name: flower mouth
everything is so loud
but when you open your mouth i see flowers fall out
in a crowded room
smoke takes over vision then it takes you too
fever creeps so near
i don’t know what to do without you here
if its time to drown
then all i need’s a flower i can carry around

a hole poked thru
the lens in the camera and the foliage bloomed
a quick shot of life
that was superimposed on the deadest of nights
every color is there,
every single hue contained within the air
so stuck full of life
that i have stopped caring about the time